Nobody's home

I'm so hurt. I don't even know why anymore. I'm so confused. I don't want to do anything anymore. When I started this blog a long time ago I was so happy and now look at me. I'm so hurt, I feel so damaged.
There are people who say to express your feelings and then there are people who say to just smile. So now I will try what I have not tried yet. Putting on my fake smile and pushing everything completely inside......

Fall to Pieces

I haven't felt anything yet have I? Only I know....I miss him a lot right now, every weekend I cry and I just don't know what to do with myself. If I don't have any friends it hurts more because I remember being with him on the weekends. It was always so fun. But now every time I see him I just want to cry. But I try and get through it. Who knows when this will be over, I don't.
Life's so confusing, I try and make everyone happy but no one notices and when I try to make myself happy it's like it doesn't matter. I'm trying, why doesn't anyone see that?.... I won't ever understand this thing called life. This is just an obstacle....I'll get through it....right?
Who knows.....
This is short, but I don't really know what else to say right now except I miss him and I feel hurt by all the ones I love....